My current status

makes me feel pensive, thoughtful, grateful, anxious, nervous, scared, ready, willing, peaceful, uneasy, undeserving, lucky, glad, beautiful, amused, enlightened, protective, respectful, connected, selfless, selfish, risky, brave, sheepish, vulnerable and smiley.

Mostly i'm okay with it.
But it's at times like these when i maybe wish i were a fairy.

"Tink was not at all bad: or, rather, she was all bad just now, but, on the other hand, sometimes she was all good. Fairies have to be one thing or the other, because being so small they unfortunately have room for one filling only at a time. They are, however, allowed to change, only it must be a complete change." - J. M. Barrie, Peter and Wendy

Also - i have soap in my eye and it stings.

Despite it all and my want to dig into each feeling and thought, i know that i'm simply the most fortunate individual Provo, Utah has ever seen in the month of January during the year 2009.

case in point.