I got my bridal pictures taken by Jessica Peterson. She's pretty fabulous and terribly professional: www.jesslorraine.blogspot.com
Hire her.
Saturday, January 23, 2010
Friday, January 22, 2010
There are
things i don't think i'm particularly good at. Don't get me wrong - i don't mean this in a seriously self-demeaning way. I just mean it in the, i suppose i fall into the "average" category when it comes to this and that and the other thing. Thus, I'm not particularly good at it.
These things include:
(and don't give me any of those "No WAY! You ROCK at this and that." I'm not looking for encouragement or compliments. I've found that within myself. You see, that's why I'm writing this blog. Bear with me.)
Singing
Writing
Athletics (in general)
Pioneering "Fashion"
Making New Ideas
etc.
But sometimes i feel empowered. You see, i had a voice lesson today. YES! I'm taking voice lessons (finally.) She asked me what my "final goal" is for taking lessons. I didn't quite know what to say, but eventually my brain puked out some sort of insightful answer. I told her that my end goal wasn't to be able to sing "Don't Rain on My Parade," or "Defying Gravity." My end goal wasn't to make it to the big time. I just told her that I want control. I want control over my voice so that I COULD sing whatever i wanted, however i wanted and when i want. And so i feel confident about it as opposed to the NOT confident i currently feel.
It felt good to want that.
Lesson #1 - Assertive is good.
She told me that i'll be able to progress a lot if i worked at it. She also said I have a beautiful voice. I'm not trying to sing my own praises! No, i just am saying that maybe i'm wrong. It entered my mind that i could have something good - if i work at it.
Lesson #2 - Voice may not be so bad after all! (at the end of the semester).
Cool.
So this got me thinking about the other things i don't feel so confident about. Maybe i can feel better about them - like my fleeting moment of acceptance with my voice today. I suppose that sometimes when I exercise, i feel like i've got it down and i'm strong! I suppose sometimes i feel like i've written a cleverly worded blog. I'm buying new glasses soon that DON'T look like every other pair. And I'm resolving to blog more, exercise more, sing more, EVERYTHING more so i can be better! And by better i mean confident. And by confident i mean "to have control."
So - I suppose i can do things that i'm not particularly good at in my own particular way and, thus, be particularly good at it!
I guess it's something to think about, right?
These things include:
(and don't give me any of those "No WAY! You ROCK at this and that." I'm not looking for encouragement or compliments. I've found that within myself. You see, that's why I'm writing this blog. Bear with me.)
Singing
Writing
Athletics (in general)
Pioneering "Fashion"
Making New Ideas
etc.
But sometimes i feel empowered. You see, i had a voice lesson today. YES! I'm taking voice lessons (finally.) She asked me what my "final goal" is for taking lessons. I didn't quite know what to say, but eventually my brain puked out some sort of insightful answer. I told her that my end goal wasn't to be able to sing "Don't Rain on My Parade," or "Defying Gravity." My end goal wasn't to make it to the big time. I just told her that I want control. I want control over my voice so that I COULD sing whatever i wanted, however i wanted and when i want. And so i feel confident about it as opposed to the NOT confident i currently feel.
It felt good to want that.
Lesson #1 - Assertive is good.
She told me that i'll be able to progress a lot if i worked at it. She also said I have a beautiful voice. I'm not trying to sing my own praises! No, i just am saying that maybe i'm wrong. It entered my mind that i could have something good - if i work at it.
Lesson #2 - Voice may not be so bad after all! (at the end of the semester).
Cool.
So this got me thinking about the other things i don't feel so confident about. Maybe i can feel better about them - like my fleeting moment of acceptance with my voice today. I suppose that sometimes when I exercise, i feel like i've got it down and i'm strong! I suppose sometimes i feel like i've written a cleverly worded blog. I'm buying new glasses soon that DON'T look like every other pair. And I'm resolving to blog more, exercise more, sing more, EVERYTHING more so i can be better! And by better i mean confident. And by confident i mean "to have control."
So - I suppose i can do things that i'm not particularly good at in my own particular way and, thus, be particularly good at it!
I guess it's something to think about, right?
Wednesday, January 20, 2010
Opinion:
Tuesday, January 19, 2010
I got
married.
And, funny thing is, when you do that whole "follow through" thing with major life decisions that you know are right and good it all works out and huzzah huzzah I'M SO HAPPY!!!
Thursday, January 7, 2010
Today my life is like:
Big Fish.
Why?
I'll tell you.
"I just get so hungry!"
It's true.
I've been feeling this way all week.
Mostly for knowledge.
My upper-level classes are, finally, stimulating.
My life is a circus.
That cannot be denied.
I'm 1 1/2 years away from graduation.
The end is in sight!
And let me tell you - I'm on to bigger and better things.
I'm not ready to give up my shoes yet.
Too much to do and too many things to see.
Sunday, December 13, 2009
Ug.
Do you ever just stop and think to yourself, while maybe suppressing some mild profanities,
"What the crap am I doing with my life?"
or better yet
"What do I want to do with my life?"
Yeah. It's just one of those days.
Monday, December 7, 2009
Sick.
I see things like this and I get so jealous of it's cute-ness and Anna's creativity that it makes me feel like i'm not doing anything at all with my life. At. All.
Ug.
Typically, when i'm bored or feeling directionless i look at this stuff. Even when i've seen it eight-thousand-seven-hundred-and-thirty-four times.
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