Friday, April 17, 2009


It seems as though i've hit a big fork in the road.
And i'm not talking just your average four-way stop-signed stop. It's even more deluxe-afied than a four way stop with traffic lights. I'm pretty sure this is one of those forks in the road where each road is basically a 5-8 lane road, and there aren't just two roads converging. There are definitely at least 5 or 6 roads converging all perpendicular and diagonal-wise.

On top of that it's one of those intersections where half the lanes have dotted lines to guide you so you're not really sure where to go, and there are random medians where you don't expect them to be and miscellaneous aarows pointing in directions you didn't even notice existed.

6 roads with 8 lanes. That's 12 different directions to go and ..what, 96 different possible combinations of lanes and directions?

Yeah. That's my kind of intersection.

Granted, it's all very thrilling! But unfortunately, i think some of the directions at the intersection have construction work and what not so they're not really options, but i look at them longingly for now. I don't quite know when construction will be finished, but i'd like it to be immediately, pleasekaythankyou.

Nevertheless -
My roommates, who were all put together I've no doubt by God's good grace and power, are getting married and/or moving on and away. The 6 of us will never live together again.
My college carreer is (technically) 50% complete. You always hear that these are the best days of your life, and I can't help but wonder if I'd agree. Time to assess.
My sister is graduating, engaged and moving on. Rock on MLE.

And despite it all, my ambition still makes me feel restless, and I remain painfully aware that the world is still spinning and is still very, very awake.

I'll find my place, yet.


  1. Just drop out of your current program, and everything will fall into place!! ;)

    I kid, I kid.

    96 possible combinations. Huh.

  2. Yay for extended metaphors!

    Sometimes I think we interpret things very linearly. I think it's important to remember that there is a time and seasons to all aspects of our lives.

    I also think oftentimes the roads that appear to lead striaght out away from a decision-intersection, we forget that they oftentimes make a big loop and lead us back to some of the same options, us having become all the wiser by traveling down the road of our choice. It's even possible that the roads under construction are simply the way back to where we started. Then once we're back at the intersection, we've had the experience of that first road we took (which is also the one that led us back).

    There are decisions that can lead us to completely different intersections, but I don't think they are all mutually exclusive decisions to make. Heavenly Father seems to do a good job of giving us multiple chances to choose between different life paths.