There are

things i don't think i'm particularly good at. Don't get me wrong - i don't mean this in a seriously self-demeaning way. I just mean it in the, i suppose i fall into the "average" category when it comes to this and that and the other thing. Thus, I'm not particularly good at it.

These things include:

(and don't give me any of those "No WAY! You ROCK at this and that." I'm not looking for encouragement or compliments. I've found that within myself. You see, that's why I'm writing this blog. Bear with me.)

Singing
Writing
Athletics (in general)
Pioneering "Fashion"
Making New Ideas
etc.

But sometimes i feel empowered. You see, i had a voice lesson today. YES! I'm taking voice lessons (finally.) She asked me what my "final goal" is for taking lessons. I didn't quite know what to say, but eventually my brain puked out some sort of insightful answer. I told her that my end goal wasn't to be able to sing "Don't Rain on My Parade," or "Defying Gravity." My end goal wasn't to make it to the big time. I just told her that I want control. I want control over my voice so that I COULD sing whatever i wanted, however i wanted and when i want. And so i feel confident about it as opposed to the NOT confident i currently feel.

It felt good to want that.

Lesson #1 - Assertive is good.

She told me that i'll be able to progress a lot if i worked at it. She also said I have a beautiful voice. I'm not trying to sing my own praises! No, i just am saying that maybe i'm wrong. It entered my mind that i could have something good - if i work at it.

Lesson #2 - Voice may not be so bad after all! (at the end of the semester).

Cool.

So this got me thinking about the other things i don't feel so confident about. Maybe i can feel better about them - like my fleeting moment of acceptance with my voice today. I suppose that sometimes when I exercise, i feel like i've got it down and i'm strong! I suppose sometimes i feel like i've written a cleverly worded blog. I'm buying new glasses soon that DON'T look like every other pair. And I'm resolving to blog more, exercise more, sing more, EVERYTHING more so i can be better! And by better i mean confident. And by confident i mean "to have control."

So - I suppose i can do things that i'm not particularly good at in my own particular way and, thus, be particularly good at it!

I guess it's something to think about, right?

Opinion:

I've been planning on doing this for months! Just had to get thru the wedding so I could have me a classy up-do!...but now I'm scared. Convince me that something like the below pictures would be a good move (minus the choppy bangs. Ew!) Thoughts?

I got

married.

And, funny thing is, when you do that whole "follow through" thing with major life decisions that you know are right and good it all works out and huzzah huzzah I'M SO HAPPY!!!

Today my life is like:

Big Fish.

Why?

I'll tell you.

"I just get so hungry!"

It's true.

I've been feeling this way all week.

Mostly for knowledge.

My upper-level classes are, finally, stimulating.

My life is a circus.

That cannot be denied.

I'm 1 1/2 years away from graduation.

The end is in sight!

And let me tell you - I'm on to bigger and better things.

I'm not ready to give up my shoes yet.

Too much to do and too many things to see.

But in 8 days I'll have this.

And i couldn't be happier.

Ug.

Do you ever just stop and think to yourself, while maybe suppressing some mild profanities,

"What the crap am I doing with my life?"

or better yet

"What do I want to do with my life?"

Yeah. It's just one of those days.

Sick.

I see things like this and I get so jealous of it's cute-ness and Anna's creativity that it makes me feel like i'm not doing anything at all with my life. At. All.

Ug.

Typically, when i'm bored or feeling directionless i look at this stuff. Even when i've seen it eight-thousand-seven-hundred-and-thirty-four times.

Maybe i'll name a child after her. Anna. How unique!

Good thing I've ordered a custom wedding certificate from her. I suppose, now, life can go on?

Hello, My Name Is:

Hello, my name is "House." And Lizzy recently moved into me. I was built around 1900, so I am very old. A lawyer (or doctor? Lizzy can't remember) built me then, after he moved here from New York. Polygamy may or may not have been a factor in his moving to Utah.

Incidentally, Lizzy's window is in the bottom right corner. The apartment is a perfect, one-bedroom apartment with very high ceilings (I'm talkin' 12-14 feet!) and a lack of electrical outlets in the front room. That small jut-out part of me (House) on the right is an addition in which is a laundry room, and Lizzy's bedroom.

Speaking of Lizzy's bedroom - it's rather fabulous. You enter through a door off the kitchen, and you must step down to enter! Neat!

Lizzy's bedroom fits a queen sized bed, a desk from IKEA, and will soon have a dresser as well. But for now, her favorite part are these fantastic curtains she got for $8 at DI. They hang over the closet (there are no doors.) But, they're wonderful, really.

The kitchen, in so many words, is GINORMOUS, with plenty of cupboard and storage space. Pleasantly, the cupboards are a bluish-green color (that I'm sure was chosen somewhere around 1948 and has simply been matched and maintained since then...)

The bathroom is under the stairs. Parts of it are very updated. Parts of it are not (thank goodness! They're so charming.) One of these parts is the claw-foot bathtub, once blue (to match the light blue floor and once-blue walls) but now painted white.

It's gorgeous!

Lastly, allow me to introduce you to the cozy front room, complete with original fireplace. I love this original piece! Think how many people have looked at, touched, scraped against and warmed up by this fireplace (complete with stove outlet - as shown above!) Unfortunately, the chimney, now, is a means of travel for the gas pipes and such, and the actual fireplace itself is somewhat of an eyesore - but the original bricks are, indeed, a treasure.

Another treasure is the steal of a deal Lizzy and Spencer got on furniture! A couch, matching chair, 4 pillows, coffee table and side table - unused, unworn and BEAUTIFUL for only $550! Seeing as a new IKEA couch on it's own is $299 to begin with - i'd say they lucked out. It's so cheerful, sturdy and comfortable! Hooray!!

That's about it, folks! It was nice to meet you!

Do come visit!

Love,

House.